A Great Day...

Today was cheer tryouts for my 14 year old baby girl...as I watched her I began reflecting on a year ago at this time...she was soooo nervous and excited and so was I and so were my two homies that sat with me in support of me and my baby girl...wispering...giggling...holding our breath when it was her turn...taking pictures and video taping her every move confident that she was the best one out there...man that was fun...

But today was different...she was an old pro...laughing with her friends...confident...leading her little cheakas in a mantra of giggles and silliness...and me...I was fluttering around with my man buy my side...lugging in tables and candy and muffins...ice chests with water the cash box a Starbucks travel box full of liquid energy...and lunch for the judges...how did this happen...I joke of this often...but to tell you the truth I'm enjoying every minute...

But also in my reflections I realized...another year is gone...even now my throat is tight and my eyes are blurry...where has the year gone??? My baby...my baby...she's growing up and I'm feeling the sting of time filling my heart once again...

Oh Lord help me to enjoy every minute...to be aware of the moments...the precious moments...

Happy Earth Day!!!!!

"A human being is a part of the whole universe, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings as something separated from the rest, a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a prison, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty." -- Einstein

Don't Judge A Book By Its Cover!!!

Susan Boyle from Bijesh Karuvarathodiyil on Vimeo.

I was reading this blog today...and had to post! Between watching Susan Boyle and reading this post I had conviction and then I had a thought...there are people that come to church week after week without connecting...I must admit this isn't the first time I've thought of these people...and I haven't always had the nicest thoughts about them...not thinking of them in a mean and cruel way like the people in Susan Boyle's audience...but just thinking that they have a responsibility to connect! Not only is that a bad attitude to have, (I'm sure you are all falling down in shock by my confession) and not very Christ like...I realized that there are people that we will need to continuously reach out to...God wants to use us to help Him grow His people...to realize their gifts, lifting them up, encouraging them, loving them...to know them well enough to know how to do those things or what they even are...so...now what? Do I post this and forget about it? Or do I look around me and see if God can use me to make a difference?

Love

1 Corinthians 13
Love
1If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.


When I am in a bad place in the middle of a challenging time know matter what it is. My marriage a bad choice my child has made a relationship what ever the challenge may be. If I don’t have love motivating my thoughts, my decisions, the things I say. I really do sound like a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal…loud and obnoxious. I’ve even come to the point of getting sick and tired of hearing my self talk or think! My thoughts become cluttered with wrong emotions and resentments. Most often I feel hopeless in that situation. I’m thinking maybe if you don’t have love surrounding your situation you must not have Christ surrounding your situation because God is love. 1 John 4:16 says and so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him.
Later in 1 Corinthians 13:8 it says love never fails. And that my friend is the answer I’m searching for when I say...I really don’t know how to handle this situation, what choices do I make, what do I need to say, how should I say it? Love NEVER fails!
Thank you God for you never ending never failing love. Help me God to put You and Your love in the center of every part of my life…

Boys will be boys...

So I've shared this story with a couple of friends and decided I would let you guys in on it too!! Not to long ago Colton had to go with me to Target...one of his least favorite things to do...as we were walking past the lingerie section I looked over to see my son raising his arm up slowly to touch the DD bra cup...that evidently was to much to resist...as we walked by...he quickly forced his hand away before touching any delicates grabbed my arm and hid his face in it...then looked up at me and said "mom those things make me feel funny...especially the big ones"...WHAT...I calmly looked at him and said..."I know honey it's okay." We continued our shopping and haven't spoken of it since...Oh Lord I don't know if I'm ready for this...